But, I am feeling a little anxious. I really do know that the CT scan is going to show the bump on Andy's head is nothing. But, still, I feel anxious. Because he's my baby. Because I am his momma! Because I love that little nugget.
I have been talking about it some with people (not a lot, but some) because I am a very open person- hence the blog. Sometimes it is helpful...like when people agree with me, "yeah, I am SURE it's nothing!" But sometimes it can be scary.... like when people feel his head and say, "oh yeah, I would definitely get that checked out."
Andy isn't acting any differently. He is still wild as all get out. He still cracks himself up. He still screams bloody murder for no reason at all. In my mind, though, I am over-analyzing things (WAYYY too much). I think, "wasn't he talking more before?" which-- truth be told, I think he got lazy while we were traveling....if he pointed and grunted, he had enough people around him to get whatever he wanted. Then I think, "what if his random screaming fits are actually because there is something wrong with him....?"
I realize I am being ridiculous, but honestly, I can't control my thoughts, and this little blog here is not just for pictures and fun. I have to keep it real. So, I am being really honest in my fears.
One week from today, they will sedate my baby and do the CT scan. Then we will know. And I know it is nothing.... but BOY, can this momma worry!
So y'all just bare with me and my what ifs, k?
I am off to hug BOTH of my munchkins.
3 comments:
Totally understand where you are coming from. I worry about things that are not really even possible..the whatifs can get sooo out of control for me. Thanks for your honesty - we could all use more of that. Prayers for you and for the appointment headed upstairs now!
oh my sweet friend, as moms, its sort of our job to worry. remember that god has such a big plan for your little guy! praying for your heart this week. xo
Carrie...he is your baby. Of course you are going to worry, shows you are a good momma and he is lucky to have you be proactive to make sure he is the healthiest little man he can be. Please keep us all updated. Vent away your anxieties whenever you feel the need. We all support you! Prayers to you and Andy in the coming week. I am sure he is fine (usually when docs even suspect something wrong they would RUSH him into a CT and not give you an option, mostly to cover their legal asses). Hang in there...my prayers are with you!
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