Cue the emotions...

This morning I woke up before Cal and laid in bed thinking of how many blessings I have in my life right now...and it totally overwhelmed me with emotions. 

My mom came over this morning to keep Cal so I could run to the hospital for some pre-op stuff.  The babysitter who will be keeping Cal while we are in the hospital also came over so we went over everything for her.  Cal immediately went over to her and took her hand and led her around the house.  He climbed up on her lap when she sat down, and took an immediate love to her.  I was so so grateful. 

The work at the hospital was quick and easy and I was on my way home in no time.  I called to check in with mom and she and Cal were in the back yard playing.  I was so grateful to her for taking the time to love on him and let him run around in the yard.  I knew he was over the top happy-- and again, I was so so grateful.

I am also grateful for some of the greatest friends you could ever hope or dream for.  I got home from my appointment and three of my friends were at my house (or came shortly after I arrived) with lunch for me AND Cal.  All of the kids played together and wore each other out and Cal thought it was just the best thing ever.  It was SO unbelievably nice to be able to sit with them one more time before I have an infant in my arms-- I just felt so lucky, and you guessed it: blessed. 

As I was driving this morning to my appointment, I was just thinking to myself that I am one lucky girl.  I do not take any of it for granted, and if anything, all of the blessings in my life make me want to be a better person.  I want to be a better mom to these amazing little boys that God has given me.  I want to be a really GOOD friend to these friends that would do anything for me (I hope they know the same is true for me...I would do anything for them too).  And I want to be a really good daughter to my mom-- I want her to know how much I value and appreciate her. 

So... if you can't tell...the emotions have been flowing a bit today!  I am so anxious to meet and love on my new little guy.  I have been playing the "this time tomorrow" game all day.  I just thought to myself: "this time tomorrow, I will be nursing my baby...." and it made my heart swell a little bit...

Also, I am grateful for anything who takes the time to read this blog.  I know it can be boring as all get out, but it helps me to just spew out all of these emotions...as erratic as they may be!


xoxox,